I really want to try to write most days - more for myself as I doubt anyone will ever read this. I said I would weigh myself today so I have the number that for ever more will be my before number.
319.2
I thought it was less. It makes me feel sad, ashamed, angry, out of control and a thousand other awful emotions. No wonder my clothes don't fit. No wonder I am single and haven't had sex in almost 6 years. No wonder my self confidence no longer exists.
I also went for a 30 minute walk today. It was hard. I sprained my knee last February and its still not 100%. I honestly think one leg is longer than the other now. My lower back hurt. All my leg joints hurt but I pushed through and slowly put one foot in front of the other and walked around the track. I felt silly that elderly people were lapping me but I guess my goal should be to be like them and be active in my 60s and 70s not trapped in a bed in a nursing home.
The good news is it will only get easier. The more I move the easier it will become.
I ate well today. Greek yogurt, grilled chicken salad, grapes and anew recipe for Mac and Cheese using spaghetti squash instead of pasta. I might have some bell peppers and dip for an evening snack.
So tomorrow is another day to focus on losing "just" 5 lbs. Good luck.
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