So I have basically laid on the couch for 3 months. Oh, did I mention I am 41 years old and weigh over 300 pounds? I try to forget myself. I could have been exercising the last few months but no I chose to wallow in self pity since that solves so many problems lol. It's Thanksgiving weekend so I went to happy hour with my closest friends and we discussed going on a cruise to celebrate a friend's 50th birthday in 2017. This is 1 year and 9 months from now. I immediately panicked thinking about fitting in a cruise ship bathroom. I have been on 3 vacations in the last 3 years that I have been restricted by my weight and have not wanted my picture taken out of embarrassment. I don't want to go on another vacation this fat.
Today while having breakfast with a friend, she mentioned her doctor wanted her to focus on losing just 5 pounds by the end of January ie through the holidays. This was like a lightning bolt hit me. Focus on just 5 lbs in a month (we all know most people wouldn't begin until January) not the 150+ lbs I need to lose. If I lost "just" 5 lbs a month for the next 20 months prior to the trip I would drop 100 lbs. If I exceed the goal in any given month so be it ~ all the better.
I am sick of wallowing. I not only pay for a gym membership I don't use, I also have access to the walking track at the community center. It's kind of shameful. I have no excuses not to be active and as I am unemployed I am primarily eating at home and have full control of what I do and what I eat.
So tomorrow I go for a walk and clean up my eating. I won't be perfect but I will do my best and focus on "just" 5 lbs in December. I also need to start sleeping in a more normal pattern and will get my baseline weight in the morning. I plan to record my progress here so I hope you join me on my journey.
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